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July 4th nails

I had decided to paint my nails for the 4th of July. I was just going to paint them alternating red, white and blue but then I decided to add a twist on two fingers for each hand. It didn’t come out quite as nice as I would have liked but it came out better than it could have. haha!

I started by painting the middle three fingers of each hand white. The middle finger was staying white. I was using white as the base for the other two.

I started by painting the middle three fingers of each hand white (well, technically opaque). The middle finger was staying all white. I was using white as the base for the other two.

It's hard to see but I added a thin strip of tape across the middle of my two fingers. I wish I would have made the tape a bit thinner though.

It’s hard to see but I added a thin strip of tape across the middle of my two fingers. I wish I would have made the tape a bit thinner though.

I painted my pinky finger solid red and the tops of my other nails red as well.

I painted my pinky finger solid red and the tops of my other nails red as well.

Then I added blue to the tips of the nails and made my thumb solid blue. When it dried a little, I had Hubby take off the tape.

Then I added blue to the tips of the nails and made my thumb solid blue. When it dried a little, I had Hubby take off the tape.

Then I used nail polish remover around the edges to make it look prettier and added a clear finishing coat of polish.

Then I used nail polish remover around the edges to make it look prettier and added a clear finishing coat of polish.

Well, there you have it! My pretty nails for the fourth of July. I wanted to have Hubby take a picture of both hands but I forgot to. Oops!

Late night ramble when I should be sleeping

Ah insomnia. Peanut has had a crazy sleep schedule lately. She will sleep through the night for 3-4 days. Then she will become a night owl staying up all night for 3-4 days. It’s been a continuing cycle. I try to get her off of the late nights but she keeps reverting back to it. This has been really messing up my sleep schedule. When I do finally get her to fall asleep, I am left wide awake. I laid in bed for 45 minutes trying to sleep to no avail. I finally got up when I had to pee and didn’t see the point in going back to bed.

What I hate most about being wide awake at night is the free time I have to think. I’m an overthinker. I think and think and think. One thought leads to another to another and its a hard cycle to break. I am currently worried about finances but I’m not even bothering getting into that. Worrying about our finances makes me wish so badly that I was still licensed for massage therapy. I even spent time looking on craigslist for job openings. I don’t know why I bothered because it makes me even sadder. I loved doing massage therapy. It was a passion of mine. Unfortunately, I can’t afford to renew my license. Especially without a massage therapy job waiting for me. Not to mention I haven’t given a real massage in almost a year.

Part of me wants to get into shape, lose weight, live a healthy lifestyle and then help others do the same. I’m not sure how I would do that. Either becoming a fitness instructor or something. It has been a possible thought in the back of my mind but it is too far away for me to even think about it. I also fear of the same thing happening to that “dream” as what happened to my massage therapy dream. I don’t even know if it is even a dream at this point. More of wishful thinking. I haven’t even talked to anyone about this. Not even Hubby.

I want to do something inspiring. I want to help other people and motivate them to better themselves. I want a job where I can do what I love but also have plenty of time to spend with Peanut. Part of me feels like I am meant to do great things but I don’t know what those things are. I have always felt a drive to do…. something. I just haven’t been able to figure out exactly what that is or how to implement it correctly into my life. I am hoping I will learn what it is as I continue on my path to a healthy lifestyle and as I continue this journey to becoming a better me. I have so much passion and enthusiasm. Hopefully, I will find a way to put it to good use. Until then I will use it to better myself, be a wonderful mother and wife, and use it to write this blog.

I told you this overthinking gets me in trouble. I’ll stop while I’m ahead. LOL! Thanks for reading to my weird late night ramble post. haha! Hopefully, I will feel more positive in the morning 🙂

Tye-Dye Nails

If you haven’t realized it yet from my posts (or I just haven’t been posting enough yet), I love to go all out. I am a very enthusiastic person and when I do something, I go for it. So when it came to Relay this weekend, I was going all out. Tye-dye was the theme I was going for so I decided to tye-dye my fingernails as well. I already had tye-dyed shirts for myself, Hubby, Peanut, and my mother-in-law. Now it was time to continue the tye-dye. I found an awesome tye-dye nail tutorial here and used it to do my own nails. Here are some pictures of the process!

Make sure to have all your supplies ready before you start

Make sure to have all your supplies ready before you start

Including Plastic wrap (or something similar)

Including Plastic wrap (or something similar)

I painted my nails a base coat of opaque white. Then I put tape around my nails to make it less messy (I didn't do it for the other hand though)

I painted my nails a base coat of opaque white. Then I put tape around my nails to make it less messy (I didn’t do it for the other hand though)

Add drops of the nail polish colors you want to use. Make sure they don't touch.

Add drops of the nail polish colors you want to use. Make sure they don’t touch.

Fold the plastic in half and light press to make the colors mix. Don't press too much or the colors will over blend.

Fold the plastic in half and light press to make the colors mix. Don’t press too much or the colors will over blend.

Here is another picture of the colors being added to the plastic

Here is another picture of the colors being added to the plastic

See how the colors mix nicely to look tye dyed. Take the plastic and lay it gently on your nails. Try not to move it or the colors will smear.

See how the colors mix nicely to look tye dyed. Take the plastic and lay it gently on your nails. Try not to move it or the colors will smear.

My nails after I put the polish on

My nails after I put the polish on

Take off the tape if you used it

Take off the tape if you used it

Use nail polish remover to remove the excess polish around the nail

Use nail polish remover to remove the excess polish around the nail

The best time to do this is when the little ones are asleep if you have little ones LOL Peanut was napping

The best time to do this is when the little ones are asleep if you have little ones LOL Peanut was napping

Here's the finished nails! I love them!

Here’s the finished nails! I love them!

Toes

I also painted Peanut and my toenails purple!

I just love how my nails came out. Peanut has loved looking at her toes now that they are purple. Too cute!

Tye-dying for Relay!

Everyone at my work supports and helps Relay for Life, including myself and my mother-in-law. We have a team and hold events to raise money for Relay. On Friday (tomorrow), we will be having a big 24 hour event at a local high school. I am excited about it and so are other people at work. We have t-shirts to wear for the event and some of the girls at work wanted to tye-dye them. I didn’t know about it until earlier this week. My co-worker told me and said my mother-in-law wanted to tye-dye her shirt but couldn’t since she works two jobs (she’s one amazing woman. I can never say enough great things about her).

Once I had the chance, I texted Jellybean and asked her if she wanted me to tye-dye her shirt for her. She excitedly said yes and said she’d drop the stuff off the next day. I asked what colors she wanted and she said all of them. LOL I also had the great idea of tye-dying a onesie for Peanut to wear since she will be at the Relay event as well. So the next day, I had all the stuff I needed to tye-dye including shirts for Jellybean, Hubby, myself and a onesie for Peanut. I was excited to tye-dye. I love doing crafts and projects. I pre-washed the clothes and set up everything while Peanut was awake so they would be ready once she went down for her nap. Then all I had to do was wait for her to take her nap and I was ready to go!

Peanut went down for her nap and I was ready! I was the only one doing the tye-dying so I took as many pictures as I could without getting dye all over my phone. LOL! So here they are!

Make sure to read the instructions

Make sure to read the instructions

Lay the t-shirt flat on the table (or whatever surface you're using).

Lay the t-shirt flat on the table (or whatever surface you’re using).

Pinch shirt at the center (or wherever you want the design to start) and start twisting it into a spiral.

Pinch shirt at the center (or wherever you want the design to start) and start twisting it into a spiral.

T-shirt completely spiraled.

T-shirt completely spiraled.

Put a rubber-band around the outside of the shirt.

Put a rubber-band around the outside of the shirt.

Continue to place rubber-bands around the shirt dividing it into wedges. Make as many wedges as you would like.

Continue to place rubber-bands around the shirt dividing it into wedges. Make as many wedges as you would like.

Have all your supplies ready!

Have all your supplies ready!

All the clothes are bundled and ready to dye. I did the same style on all of the shirts. Except my socks I tried to dye. They didn't spiral well.

All the clothes are bundled and ready to dye. I did the same style on all of the shirts. Except my socks I tried to dye. They didn’t spiral well.

Adding the yellow dye

Adding the yellow dye

All the shirts with yellow added

All the shirts with yellow added

Time for some red!

Time for some red!

Red and yellow!

Red and yellow!

Going green

Going green

Red, yellow and green

Red, yellow and green

Adding blue (I didn't have a chance to take a picture of the purple

Adding blue (I didn’t have a chance to take a picture of the purple

All the colors were added. Now I just had to add the extra colors

All the colors were added. Now I just had to add the extra colors

The shirts are covered in all the pretty colors.

The shirts are covered in all the pretty colors.

Wrap up all the shirts in plastic wrap. I was apparently out of plastic wrap so I used grocery bags.

Wrap up all the shirts in plastic wrap. I was apparently out of plastic wrap so I used grocery bags.

This is why you should use gloves. My hands became even more colorful as the process wore on.

This is why you should use gloves. My hands became even more colorful as the process wore on.

Unwrap and hang the shirts out to dry. I love how they look!

Unwrap and hang the shirts out to dry. I love how they look!

I had a blast and I think they turned out great! I love the colors! My mother-in-law really liked them too. I will be postponing my Squat challenge tomorrow since I plan on walking 5K around the track and don’t want to overdo it on my legs. I plan on posting pictures!

Jamming with My Mother-in-Law

Earlier this week, we went over to my in-law’s house. Jellybean (my mother-in-law) knew I wanted to make jam so she invited me over to make jam with her. Not just any jam but strawberry jam! Strawberry jam made with my father-in-law’s homegrown strawberries. I was so excited to make it! I thought I’d show you guys a brief overview of what we did. We didn’t follow the directions exactly. We made some shortcuts.

The main ingredient homegrown crushed strawberries

The main ingredient homegrown crushed strawberries

The rest of the ingredients sugar, pectin, lids and jars (not in the picture).

The rest of the ingredients sugar, pectin, lids and jars (not in the picture).

Jellybean reading the instructions.

Jellybean reading the instructions.

Put the lids in water until the lids begin to boil then turn off the heat.

Put the lids in water until the lids begin to boil then turn off the heat.

Have the jars clean and ready

Have the jars clean and ready

Put the strawberries in a pot (with just a little butter. like half a teaspoon) and heat it up until it starts to boil.

Put the strawberries in a pot (with just a little butter. like half a teaspoon) and heat it up until it starts to boil.

Add the pectin as the crushed strawberries heat up.

Add the pectin as the crushed strawberries heat up.

Just keep stirring, stirring, stirring

Just keep stirring, stirring, stirring

Once it is hot enough, add the sugar. Make sure you stir as you add the sugar.

Once it is hot enough, add the sugar. Make sure you stir as you add the sugar.

Stir until the mixture begins to boil and stir while it boils for one full minute.

Stir until the mixture begins to boil and stir while it boils for one full minute.

After you take the mixture off the burner, bring it over to the jars and start pouring. Be careful.

After you take the mixture off the burner, bring it over to the jars and start pouring. Be careful.

Here I am pouring the hot mixture into jars

Here I am pouring the hot mixture into jars

The mixture is hot so be careful when you pour it.

The mixture is hot so be careful when you pour it.

I'm just filling up the last few jars.

I’m just filling up the last few jars.

After all the jars are filled, carefully (the jars are very hot) put the lids on the jars very tightly.

After all the jars are filled, carefully (the jars are very hot) put the lids on the jars very tightly.

After the lids are on tightly, flip the jars upside down. This is a trick she told me to get the jars to seal instead of boiling them in a pot of water, etc.

After the lids are on tightly, flip the jars upside down. This is a trick she told me to get the jars to seal instead of boiling them in a pot of water, etc.

Picture of all the jars flipped over.

Picture of all the jars flipped over.

I forgot to take another picture but after the jars are upside down for like a half an hour, flip them upside right. Then you have to listen for the jars lids to make a popping sound. The popping sound means they are sealed. Double check all jars to make sure they are all sealed. If one isn’t, then eat that one first since it will go bad faster.

I had fun making the jam and it was a lot easier than I thought it was going to be. Did I forget to mention how delicious the jam is???? Mmmmm…..

National Running Day

Happy National Running Day

Happy National Running Day

Happy National Running Day! I did celebrate although I don’t run. It’s not that I don’t want to run because I do. I am just too out of shape yet to run any distance without knocking myself out with my boobs, end up laying on the ground gasping for breath and wondering why I ever tried to run. So I just saved myself the embarrassment and went for a walk instead. LOL

Hubby, Peanut and I went for a nice walk. It was great outside. Not too hot but not too cool. Perfect weather to be outside and go for a walk. I even took some pictures. Hope everyone had a great National Running Day. I know I did. 🙂

We stopped our walk for a picture break.

We paused for a picture.

Hubby and I sitting on a bench for a water break. I love him!

Hubby and I sitting on a bench for a water break. I love him!

Peanut woke up when we stopped for a break. She's peeking at us.

Peanut woke up when we stopped for a break. She’s peeking at us.

 

 

25 things people should know about me

Face shot

I thought I would let you guys get to know me a little better so I made a list of 25 things people should know about me:

1. Whenever I love someone (as a friend, a mate, a family member), I love them deeply and completely. I won’t stop loving them even if I haven’t seen them in years. If you are lucky enough to make it into my heart, then you will never leave it.

2. I love to learn new things… sometimes I don’t even care what I am learning about as long as I’m learning.

3. I love to read. I could just read all day and be happy.

4. I love being around people. I know its crazy but I do 🙂

5. My friends are my family.

6. I am very… SQUIRREL… easily distracted…. lol

7. When I am really truly upset or hurt and I feel like I can’t talk to anyone, I write down my problems… whether its a poem, in a journal, free style, short story,etc.

8. I have a great interest in self-discovery. If you don’t know yourself, then how can you know anything about anyone else?

9. I have problems finishing projects I start because I can become easily distracted with something else.

10. I am a very physical person. I love to hug and cuddle and give massages and just touching people (in an appropriate way lol) to let them know I’m here for them.

11. When I am really upset, just give me a hug. It works.

12. I have a strong value system. When something happens to shake that value system, I become very lost.

13. I can be very childlike at times cause I love watching cartoons, playing in the rain/snow, eating cereal in my pjs, and just playing whatever game my friend’s kids come up with or acting goofy for my daughter.

14. I hate conflict.

15. I love cookies.

16. While I am very smart, I have a tendency to lack common sense…

17. My daughter and my husband are the most important people in my life. I don’t know what I’d do without them.

18. There is a core group of people in my life that I can’t live without.

19. I am a very emotional person which isn’t always good but I wouldn’t change it either.

20. I have no regrets. Life is just too short.

21. I enjoy the simple little things in life.

22. It took me a long time to learn how to love myself but I have and I do.

23. I love anything cute, little, fluffy, or adorable.

24. I make origami. It helps me focus on something while I try to organize my thoughts.

25. I over-think things sometimes.

Pampering myself

After my rough day yesterday and all the hard work I’ve been putting my body through, I decided to pamper myself today. I made a refreshing face mask using honey, nutmeg and cinnamon. I found the recipe here. I didn’t use the same proportions though. I only used half a tablespoon of honey, a teaspoon of nutmeg and a teaspoon and a half of cinnamon. The mask smells delicious! LOL So good you could eat it.

The easy ingredients for my face mask

The easy ingredients for my face mask

A picture of me with the face mask. I know it's not a pretty picture! Haha! But it really made my skin feel awesome!

A picture of me with the face mask. I know it’s not a pretty picture! Haha! But it really made my skin feel awesome!

I also used a sugar scrub when I took my shower. It was a simple one. I just mixed some water with sugar. My skin feels nice and smooth. So top off my mini spa day, I rubbed myself down with coconut oil. Ah! I am so relaxing and happy now. 😀

Feeling sexy…. not!

I am a very happy, outspoken, enthusiastic, confident woman most of the time. I would say 95% of the time I have high self-confidence, high self-esteem and high self-worth. I love myself very much and I know I am a wonderful person. I don’t say this to sound conceited. I just know I have a wonderful, loving, caring personality, not to mention being a great friend. It took me years to learn how to be this way but I have learned to love myself for who I am regardless of what anyone says (myself included) or how much I weigh. I know I am a good person.

But 5% of the time, I feel a lot less confident in myself. Today is one of those days. I just don’t feel that sexy today. I know most women go through this after having their baby but I really didn’t. There are times when I have looked in the mirror and frowned at the pooch I now have postpartum. I have learned to love it most of the time. If it wasn’t for my amazing body and the belly pooch, I wouldn’t have my amazing little girl. I can look at my belly with love and feel impressed with how amazing my body is. Some days (like today) I just look at it and sexy is the last word I’d use to describe it.

My day started out normal. I did my workouts as usual and spent the day with Hubby and Peanut. But somewhere along the way (by 3pm-ish), I have just seemed to flounder in my self-confidence and feel unattractive. I know it’s just a mood swing and I’ll feel fine tomorrow but I’m just feeling blah today. I know I am working hard to make myself healthy and fit. I am working on losing my pooch and I have already lost 5 inches around my navel. But today I just see how far I have to go instead of how far I’ve come.

I want to look smoking hot and sexy for my husband. He is so amazing, loving, kind and a wonderful dad to my daughter. I want him to show me off and be proud to wear me on his arm. I want to wear cute clothes and dresses to make him beg for it. I want to feel and look sexy. Don’t get me wrong. My husband already thinks I’m sexy and is proud to call me his wife. We still flirt with each other all the time (even though we’ve been together for 5 years now) and have a very active sex life. This isn’t about him. He’s wonderful. I’m just talking about how I’m feeling. I know he thinks I’m sexy but I want to be sexier for him and myself. Looking smoking hot and sexy is a great benefit to me as well. It will boost my self-esteem even further and I will be healthier as well.

Whenever I feel down or unattractive, it has always helped me to write about my feelings that way they aren’t pent up inside. It keeps me from eating away my feelings. I am an emotional eater. Whenever I’m stressed or upset or feeling blah, I eat (usually junk food). But writing is my healthy way of releasing my feelings in a productive and non-unhealthy way. I am already feeling better after writing this post. I am also posting this instead of trashing it to let other people on the same journey as me know they are not alone when they have bad days or are feeling down. We are only human and we all have our bad days.

Origami Idea

Something I haven’t talked about on my blog yet is my LOVE for folding origami. Since I became a mother, the ability to sit down quietly and fold paper has fallen far down on the list of things I need to do, especially since I have started working out and eating healthy (making food from scratch means I always have dirty dishes in the sink even if I wash a hundred of them!). But that is all about to change!

Folding origami is one of my favorite pastimes. I find it relaxing, enjoyable and I just love to show off what I’ve made. Whenever I made origami, I would make them as gifts for friends and family or just give them away. I have been thinking about how to make some extra income for our family while I am at home but couldn’t think of a way to do it. Then Hubby suggested making origami to sell. He had made the suggestion before but I never really thought about it. Now I think I am going to do it.

I thought I would ask what you guys think. Here are some pictures of some of the origami I have made. Do you think I could make money selling them (These are gifts I made for friends. I will try to improve upon these to sell to people)?

This is a giraffe shadow box I made for my friend Ashley. It's a simple 5x7 inch frame

This is a giraffe shadow box I made for my friend Ashley. It’s a simple 5×7 inch frame

Picture of an origami dragon I made

Picture of an origami dragon I made

This is the top view of a vase of origami roses. The picture was taken with my old phone so it's pretty blurry

This is the top view of a vase of origami roses. The picture was taken with my old phone so it’s pretty blurry

I made my friend, Heather, an complete origami noah's ark for her baby shower. Even the boat is made with origami.

I made my friend, Heather, an complete origami Noah’s ark for her baby shower. Even the boat is made with origami.

This is the first origami shadow box I made for my friend, Laurel for her baby shower.

This is the first origami shadow box I made for my friend, Laurel for her baby shower.

These are just a few examples of some of the origami I have made. I thought about making origami shadow boxes similar to the ones above to sell. I could make them in different themes like Safari, Deep Sea, Forest Life, Coral Reef, Butterflies, Flowers, etc. etc. etc. I could also make mobiles for babies.

So what do you think?

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