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A new plan and a change of pace

I have missed you guys! These past few weeks have been filled with so many ups and downs my head is still spinning. I dealt with a lot of shitty stuff for the past couple weeks but I have also enjoyed some great news and happy times as well. I have fallen completely off the wagon when it comes to working out. I am feeling much better than I have been but I’m still far from feeling 100%. In fact, I won’t being feeling 100% for quite some time. I am ready to get back on the workout wagon though! 🙂

Since I have been dealing with so much sickness lately, I have decided to change the way I have been doing things for a while. I was previously very strict about my workouts, pushing myself to my limits, becoming obsessed with how much weight I was losing and working hard to reach my goals. While this is an awesome approach (and one I will eventually do again), I have decided to slow things down for now. I was becoming too focused on what the scale said and getting stressed out when I didn’t lose as much as I wanted to. I was also trying to do workouts (plyometrics) that were too hard for my current fitness level. This was also derailing my workouts and making me dread doing them. The combination of these issues was steering me away from a healthy lifestyle rather than towards it. That is the last thing I want.

Now for my new plan of action. I want to focus more on healthy eating and take a more relaxed approach to fitness. Fortunately, I haven’t fallen too far away from healthy eating like I did with exercising. I have been bad with snacking though. My cabinets are starting to get bare since I haven’t had the energy to go grocery shopping. I will be making a new grocery list packed full healthy foods and snacks this weekend and I will be going shopping sometime soon afterwards. I am excited for the fall because I will be making lots of soups over the fall and winter. I just love homemade soups. Yum!

I have decided to do low-impact workouts and exercising for now. I plan on taking Peanut on lots of walks as well as doing yoga, pilates and other fun easy workouts. I want to slowly build my strength up from being so sick recently and I want to increase my range of motion and flexibility. I will also stop weighing myself for now because it currently isn’t what I need to be focusing on.

That’s all for now! I plan on posting more often again! Sorry for such a long leave of absence.

Sick of being sick

I promise I haven’t forgotten about this blog! I’ve had a crazy past few weeks. I feel like a bad blogger! Lately, I haven’t had the energy to do much of anything, let alone exercising. I’ve been sick for the past few weeks.

Two and a half weeks ago, I thought I had gotten bitten four times by a spider. I had woken up on a Saturday morning with these four bright red itchy spots on my side. I changed my bed sheets and thought nothing of it at first. By Monday morning, my side hurt, itched like crazy and was getting worse. I called my doctor to make an appointment to have it checked because I was afraid of it being a poisonous spider. Well, I was wrong. It wasn’t a spider bite…. I had shingles…

Shingles sounds like my arm is going to rot off. Hubby and I jokingly called it Shambling Shingles for the first few days. For those of you (like me) who don’t know what shingles is, here is a description from WebMD

“Shingles occurs when the virus that causes chickenpox starts up again in your body. After you get better from chickenpox, the virus “sleeps” (is dormant) in your nerve roots. In some people, it stays dormant forever. In others, the virus “wakes up” when disease, stress, or aging weakens the immune system.”

Shingles is only contagious to people who have never had chickenpox (aka Peanut) but only through direct contact to the rash. The symptoms I had including pain around the area, aching all over, headaches, a rash that turns into blisters, etc. Let’s just say I haven’t had a great few weeks. The rash still hasn’t gone away but it doesn’t hurt or itch that much anymore.

Sunday, I came down with a cold. Sore throat, runny nose, coughing, etc. etc. etc. I have been miserable but I am FINALLY starting to feel better. I’ll be making a post soon about what I have been thinking about during this time of being sick. I have been adjusting some of my fitness goals.

Weekly Update- July 28, 2013

Every week I plan on posting an update about my progress towards better health. I will post goals I want to accomplish in the upcoming week, if I accomplished the goals I set the previous week, current weight, if I lose or gain weight (hopefully only lose weight), and a brief summary of my activities.

Goals from previous week


Goals for the upcoming week

Do the BeFit in 90 workout each day as instructed
Drink lots of water (even more since its hot)
Eat more healthy meals, especially at lunch time
Take Peanut for walks

Weigh-in Time

Start Weight: 270 pounds
Current Weight: 247.8 pounds
Lose/Gain: Lost 0 pounds
Total Weight Loss: 22.2 pounds

Weekly Summary

I have been eating healthy this week (much better than last week). I’m still struggling with doing the BeFit in 90. I’m struggling with getting myself to do it as well as trying to complete it. I did take Peanut for a walk today and I hope to take her for more walks this week. We had a great time and we took food for Hubby’s uncle to eat. I’m getting much better than last week but I’m still finding it hard to stay motivated. But I’m trying 🙂

Weekly Update- July 14, 2013

Every week I plan on posting an update about my progress towards better health. I will post goals I want to accomplish in the upcoming week, if I accomplished the goals I set the previous week, current weight, if I lose or gain weight (hopefully only lose weight), and a brief summary of my activities.

Goals from previous week


Goals for the upcoming week

Do the BeFit in 90 workout each day as instructed
Drink lots of water (even more since its hot)
Eat more healthy meals, especially at lunch time
Eat more soluble fiber and protein

Weigh-in Time

Start Weight: 270 pounds (122.47 kilograms)
Current Weight: 247.8 pounds (112.40 kilograms)
Lose/Gain: Lost 2 pounds (0.91 kilograms)
Total Weight Loss: 22.2 pounds (10.07 kilograms)

Weekly Summary

I am so happy I lost another 2 pounds. I didn’t think I would since this past week has been terrible for my workouts. As I said in my previous posts, I have been sick all week. I finally felt good enough yesterday to start doing it again. I missed working out so much during the week. I was happy to do it again. I look forward to continuing my BeFit in 90 this week.

I ate pretty well this week. I mainly ate oatmeal and homemade soup since I was sick. I did eat a few sugary snacks this week. More than I should have. I’ll try better this week to stay away from them.

I will be trying to use metric measurements as well as standard from now on. I might forget to do it sometimes but I’ll try 😀

Always Here If You Need Me Award

always-here-if-you-need-me1Whenever I am feeling a little blue, my followers always have a way of cheering me up. There are quite a few of you awesome people who comment on my blog often, giving me support, encouraging me, inspiring me and being overall fantastic. I always try to return the favor. I love to give love and support as much as I like to receive it. Victoria at Victoriously went the extra loving mile and nominated me for the Always Here If You Need Me award. I felt so happy and special. It was wonderful of her to nominate me and let me know she noticed my comments 😀 I would definitely return the favor since she is always commenting on my blog as well but we don’t need all these nominations go to her head (which they would if she’s anything like me! haha!).

The rules of the award are:

  • Post a picture of the award somewhere on your blog.
  • List five things that make you happy.
  • Nominate three people who have always been there for you, who have always provided support and enthusiasm for your efforts, and to whom you feel you could turn when you’re dealing with challenges. Comment on their blogs and let them know of the nomination.

Five things that make me happy

  1. A relaxing hot bubble bath in a big tub with essential oils and Epsom salts.
  2. My wonderful daughter who makes my day brighter
  3. Goofing around with Hubby. Whether we are playing board games, going on a walk, having weird conversations or picking at each other, he always know how to make me laugh and goes out of his way (even acting silly just for me) to make me smile and laugh.
  4. Reading a good book. I have always loved reading. It gives you time to escape reality and go on an adventure without all the work LOL
  5. Spending time in the sunshine especially if it involves water like going to the beach, pool or lake

My Three Nominations

  1. Christina at Day by Day. She was the first person to like and comment on my blog and she has been supportive ever since. I remember how excited I was to see her name as my first follower. I will always happily read her comments and visit her blog as well 🙂
  2. Lori at Out of Hiding. She is always so supportive and encouraging. We have talked back and forth through comments on each other’s blog and I feel like we have a lot in common. I look forward to reading her blog and love reading her comments. She is always inspiring me to try harder and gives me pep talks when I’m feeling down.
  3. Lissa at If Not for the Skinny Jeans. She has always been very supportive. Her blog makes me remember to focus on all indications of a healthy lifestyle, not just the scale. Being healthy is more than just a number and Lissa always reminds me of that whenever I forget. She is a wonderful person and very inspiring. I love reading her comments on my blog and reading her blog as well.

Before and Current Pictures

I can’t believe it. I know losing 20 pounds is a lot but I really couldn’t see that much of a physical difference as I stood in front of the mirror taking my current pictures. Yes, my belly was a bit smaller and my face looked a bit thinner but I couldn’t really see that much change. After putting these pictures side by side, I was speechless. Could there really have been that much of a difference? Have I changed that much already????

I am so happy I decided to take before pictures. At first I wasn’t going to but I knew I wasn’t going to stay that way for long. I also knew I would want to be able to compare where I will be with where I started. I cann0t believe how much I have changed in just 3 months. It is totally amazing. I am so proud of myself 😀 Hubby helped me with Photoshop and he was surprised at how much I changed as well. I guess it doesn’t seem like too much since he sees me every day.

The best part is this is just the beginning! I still have quite a long journey ahead of me. I am making lifestyle changes and this is only the beginning. I look forward to seeing more progress as I continue on this path to a healthy lifestyle 😀

Front View of my before and after losing 20 pounds.

Front View of my before and after losing 20 pounds.

Side View of my before and after losing 20 pounds

Side View of my before and after losing 20 pounds

PS. sorry for the awkward pictures. I took the first ones in my bathroom right after a shower. I didn’t think I would be showing them to anyone. I wanted to make sure I took the current picture in the same clothes and same spot to really demonstrate how much I changed.

20 pounds down!!!

I can’t believe it! I have made it to my first major goal! I lost 20 pounds in a little under 3 months! It has almost made me speechless. I spent most of yesterday just thinking about how I have lost 20 pounds in such a small amount of time. It feels surreal. I almost don’t believe it. I still feel like me. Yes, I’ve noticed numerous changes since I’ve started my healthy journey but have I really changed so much that I lost 20 pounds??? I don’t feel that much different.

I still sweat like crazy when I workout. I still get out of breath during my workouts and feel sore afterwards. I am still a far way off from running or even jogging. I still modify my workouts and feel clumsy at times. I still feel like me. While there have been physical changes, I don’t feel like I look that much different. I also still have a long way to go.

But there are also many differences from when I started as well. I’m not nearly as out of breath as I use to be. I feel more energized all of the time and I feel happier. The rush of a good workout lasts longer and I usually look forward to my workouts. I feel stronger and can do more than I use to. I last longer during my workouts with less water breaks. I have lost a pant size and see the weight loss in my hips and stomach. I have lost inches as well as weight. I’ve had quite a few people tell me my face looks thinner. I look for extra ways to fit in exercise. I am already looking ahead to what workout program I will do after BeFit in 90. Plus so many more!

The part that amazes me the most is how I have lost 20 pounds. No diets, no “magic” pills, no special drinks or shakes, no fasting or binging, no cheat days or meals. I just eat healthy and exercise. I find it so unbelievable because 90% of all topics relating to losing weight say it is suppose to be harder doing it the right way. They make eating healthy and exercising seem like the hardest thing in the world to do. As though you must find a short cut or quick fix to lose weight because the “hard” way is just too hard. I feel baffled that I could reach my first goal within 3 months. I expected it to take much longer to reach this point. Much much longer…

I’m not complaining though. I have tried my hardest every day taking one day at a time. I make weekly goals to keep me focused and try every week to complete them. Most of the time I do but sometimes I don’t. That’s okay. I’m human. I make mistakes. I don’t let failure derail me. I pick myself up and try harder. I workout according to my current fitness program. Sometimes I do more, sometimes I do what I should halfheartedly but I am still moving my body and trying. Fitness is much easier for me than eating healthy. Working out is a lot easier when you have a fitness program telling you what to do.

Eating health is much harder. I don’t count calories and I am terrible at keeping up with a food journal but I’ve been trying. I eat what I know is healthy for me and I allow myself small amounts of less healthy foods occasionally. Being unable to eat foods containing any traces of milk or peanuts due to my daughter’s allergies has really helped me eat healthy. I believe cutting milk from my diet had a large impact on the way I feel and the weight I have lost. I have been struggling with balancing eating healthy foods and eating foods that don’t upset my IBS but I feel as though I am finally finding that balance. This has been the hardest struggle for me. Healthy foods I want to eat cause me terrible pain and discomfort. I am learning what healthy foods I can eat without discomfort and how to eat the other healthy foods in smaller amounts. I will continue with this progress and continue learning how to eat better.

I am truly thrilled to have accomplished this goal the right way. Everyone is different and not everyone would have the same results as I have if they did the same thing. Some people could even have better results. I’m far from perfect. The best advice I could give anyone reading this is listen to your body! I don’t know how I could stress this enough. Ignore your brain and all its confusing messages. Look past your mental cravings and boredom induced hunger. Listen to what your body is telling you and what it needs. I will be the first to admit how hard this is. There are times when I don’t want to listen to my body. I fight it and pout. I mentally whine and groan. There are times when I have to workout and feel like stomping my feet and saying “I don’t wanna!”. But you just have to suck it up buttercup. Your health is more important than anything else.

Random Family Picture

Random Family Picture

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